Α day in my life // Οktoberfest 2015

Hello gorgeous angel of the planet earth.

I highly hope your week is not even half busy as mine is at the exact moment but since the prior information that I have just shared had absolutely nothing to do with my topic I am going to simply leave it there. Grab your favorite flavor of candy and get comfortable because today's topic is Oktoberfest..

For those of you who are not familiar with the German language Oktoberfest is a compound word from the (German) words Oktober and Fest. Oktober as most of you have probably already guested means October while Fest means Celebration.

I got a call from a close to me friend the last week of October who was asking me to go

with her and her little sister (7) to Oktoberfest. I immediately accepted her offer since I am not German so I never really had the chance to go on a similar event like that in the course of my life so far!

There where a great amount of people who were wearing traditional German costumes while they were singing famous in their country songs throughout the whole event.

I took my camera with me to photograph all of those beautiful and unique moments but still being a novice in this business I completely forgot to charge it (I couldn't possibly be more stupid than that, trust me, I know!). As it was sadly obvious my camera died after I captured a few shots of the event. I am really sorry for the scarce and boring amount of pictures I took..

I'll try my best to update you guys again in a few days despise my tough and busy schedule. But until then..

Don't forget to smile..,

xoxo MacQueen98.

Dealing with anxiety (disorder), low self esteem/confidence & stress // Easy tips & ways to deal with them

Hello gorgeous angel of the planet earth.

As I already said a couple times before (this is officially the last time I ever ever repeat that, you all have my word!), this blogpost series is a collaboration with a really close to me YouTube person I always wanted to collab with. Her name's Marie and she's a really sweet and kind soul that has been and still being through a lot of hate and bullying because of her weight..

I suggest you all be prepare and bring a peace of tissue with (just in case!), because my dear lovely angel I am in the unpleasant position to tell you that this is unfortunately the last ever post written by me (MacQueen98) based on those topics. With all of the these words finally out of my system I think it's time to make a really special and helpful for you all finale.

That's why I decided to write an entire post talking (well "kind of") about things you can do that I'm also doing myself to somehow reduce my anxiety and stress while I'm cheering my confidence level up at the same time.

With everything being said is time for my personally tips and ways to help all of your beautiful lives become a little easier..

I think it's a pretty good time to get to the point, isn't it..?

• Talk to a person you trust

The first and most helpful thing you can do is to talk to someone you R E A L L Y trust. It can be anyone to a really close friend or a family member you are especially close with.

• Breath(!)

Despise the fact it's simple, we all need a little magic reminder to tell us to calm of our nerves down and just breath.

• Try to think positive

I know it's hard to convince yourself and your mind that everything is going to be alright during a panic session like the one you probably dealing with at that moment. It's really important though to try to pass a positive and happy message to your brain when everything seems like falling apart.

• Compliment yourself

Something definitely helpful for me during similar situations is complimenting myself. Trust me, I know it's sounds a bit odd and weird but it's SO important to remind yourself who you really are when you need it the most!

• Smile

Last but certainly not least is to be generous enough and give yourself a little bright cheerful present. Smiling while you're nervous is definitely going to make your brain cells spread positive messages to your mind and body.

THAT'S IT..!

Oh, I almost forgot to share a really (helpful) secret with you all which you probably(!) know already but you are actually not paying any kind of attention to it, do you?

YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE..!

Definitely NOT!

Do yourself a little favor and S T O P overthinking about what could possibly go wrong and S T A R T think the possibility of things going your way..

Don't forget to check Marie's video about her bullying experience by clicking here.

Before ending this blogpost series once and forever I want to give myself more time (if it's even possible!) and thank every single one of you who have stand by my side for another series I created. It's really important to make sure you all understand the external and internal happiness you've given to me.

I really hope that you will choose me again to entertain you and keep you company at the same time, while I'm going to make you consider and think your life one more (or maybe now that I'm actually thinking of it more that one!) time.

Don't forget to smile,

xoxo MacQueen98.

Dealing with anxiety (disorder), low self esteem/confidence & stress // Stress

Hello gorgeous angel of the planet earth.

As I already said a couple times before, this blogpost series is a collaboration with a really close to me YouTube person I always wanted to collab with. Her name's Marie (link) and she's a really sweet and kind soul that has been and still being through a lot of hate and bullying because of her weight. She's going to share with you her thoughts and stories about her bullying experience while I'm going share with you another common to a lot of people thing I'm unfortunately struggling with. Grab a snack and a huge cup of tea or coffee because today's topic is stress.

I'm pretty sure most of you out there have felt stressed because of school, college, work etc. Unfortunately for us all stress is something everyone in our generation (and not only!) is dealing with. That's the reason behind my decision to do a blogpost about it as but let's start to talk more about our topic, shall we?

A psychological research prove that the amount of stress a normal student is dealing with nowadays is the same amount of stress a psychopath used to deal with a few decades earlier. It's crazy when you think of it, isn't it?

According to a mental health document I watched a couple months ago stress is quote "your body's way of responding to any kind of demand or threat".

There's pretty much no explanation on why people are nervous. It's interesting to think the truth that namely everything is in our heads. Sometimes even a really simple situation or a really random person are able to make you feel anxious.

Something also common several people are struggling with is worrying about what about other people are thinking of them. This is something I also struggling myself with and trust me when I'm saying that it's something I'm currently "working" hard on it..

The most terrifying part about stress is the waiting part. It can be anything like a presentation, a date, a project, a doctor's appointment, an exam etc. The more you are waiting something to happen the more you are terrified causing your brain cells to release stress on your body.

I used to hold myself back a lot because of it but I am not anymore..

AND YOU SHOULN'T EITHER!

I definitely take the risk and accept every opportunity that comes in my way no matter how terrified I am because in the end you are only sure for the moment you live right now.

"Don't be afraid to show to the world who you really are" -MacQueen98.

Don't forget to check Marie's video about her bullying experience by clicking here.

xoxo MacQueen98.

Dealing with anxiety (disorder), low self esteem/confidence and stress // Low self esteem/confidence

Hello gorgeous angel of the planet earth.

As I already said in my latest post this blogpost series is a collaboration with a really close to me YouTube person I always wanted to collab with. Her name's Marie and she's a really sweet and kind soul that has been and still being through a lot of hate and bullying because of her weight. She's going to share with you her thoughts about bullying while I'm going to talk to you about something really important for our generation. Today's topics are low self esteem and low self confidence.

A psychological research prove that the beliefs you seem to have about yourself often appear to you as statements of facts, although they are actually only other people's opinions. Negative beliefs about yourself are brought to you by negative situations you experienced personally in your life. If for example people are talking to you negatively your self esteem is going to be effected negatively as well while your mind is going to absorb this sayings as facts instead of opinions aka what they truly are.

That's the reason behind my decision to write a post based on that topic. We live in a world that kind of made us lose the essence. We live in a world where other people's "opinions" are able to bring someone down.

They say..

NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER.

Everyone knows that saying but no one really implements it because we live in a world where socialization makes it easier for people to judge a person based on a stupid rumor they heard unread of try to really R E A L L Y know that person.

Daily experiences help ourselves to form our beliefs that happen to us in real life starting from our childhood. Experiences between you and your family as well as experiences between you and your wider social community affect the way you see yourself.

Keep in mind something I read a few months ago. Other people's "opinions" don't show who you are but who THEY truly are..

"Don't let other people's opinions affect you personally" -MacQueen98.

People are because rude because they've been treated as shi*t as well.

I'm not trying to excuse them I'm just saying how things really are..

This is our world my friend..

If you're not happy with it, instead of only thinking about it try to change this cruel place some people call world.

YOU CAN.

YOU CAN change this world.

YOU CAN achieve all of your personal goals.

And most importantly..

YOU CAN be happy..!

There's one last thing I need to ask you before you close this tab forever..

"Are you ready to fight for your happiness?" -MacQueen98.

Don't forget to check Marie's video about her bullying experience by clicking here.

xoxo MacQueen98.

Dealing with anxiety (disorder), low self esteem/confidence & stress // Anxiety (disorder)

Hello gorgeous angel of the planet earth. 
Today's post is slightly different than my older ones. I am proud to say that I'm finally doing a collaboration with a YouTube person that I always wanted to. Her name's Marie and she's a really sweet and kind soul that has been and still being through a lot of hate and bullying because of her weight. She's going to talk to you from the button of her heart about her bullying experience while I'm going to share with you the mental disorder that I'm unfortunately suffering from and everything that comes with it.

I just wanted to confide something really important with you before you start reading. Anxiety disorder is something that I'm dealing with since I was a little child so I'm kindly asking you to try understand what it truly feels like and be gentle..

There's a side of me that you don't really get to see in here because most of the times I like to document and talk about good things that happen to my life and manage to put a smile on my face for a while. Unfortunately I have to tell you that there's a lot more in someone's life than what they put on their social networks and media either if they're just for fun or also business included.

A lot of people are confusing anxiety with anxiety disorder. I'll try my best to explain the difference between them as easy as I possibly can. If you are feeling anxious only on situations where you supposed to feel anxious and it's completely normal then you don't have to worry about it. If you on the other side feel anxious and terrified and you are overthinking even the tiniest little things that can possibly happen to your life then we're both playing on the same team. And we're both are suffering from what physiologists call "anxiety disorder".


The truth is that anxiety is really common fear that a lot of people are suffering from in any kind of way. Every time that I start to feel anxious I always deal with the same repeating pattern. I most likely feel like I'm having no air (even though I know I always breath faster during similar situations) and I start feeling really sick and hot while my head is rumbling, my hands are sweating and my heart is beating faster and faster. Suddenly the world becomes another place. The noises are getting louder as people are getting bigger while I become smaller and smaller as the time goes by.

Something really common that I myself as most people out there regret is shutting multiple opportunities down and holding theirselves back because of it. Trust me when I'm saying I know from experience that it is not a really nice feeling but as I already said in the beginning of this post anxiety disorder is a mental illness.

No matter what other people make you think or believe I want you to accept the upcoming truth.
IT'S NORMAL TO HAVE ANXIETY DISORDER.

There's a phrase of my own I want you to remember before you close this tab forever: 
"Don't let any situations, people and thoughts effect you negatively and stop you from achieving your personal goals" -MacQueen98.

Don't forget to check Marie's video about her bullying experience by clicking here.

Don't let anxiety control your life, 

xoxo MacQueen98.

Ice cream in Heidelberg

My road trip in Heidelberg was beyond beautiful. I met the most amazing people and places as long as I was back there. I tasted some great food flavors that I won't forget for a lifetime. One of the things that I can't get out of my mind is the homemade ice cream that I tried in a small vintage ice cream shop downtown. 

The flavors were all so beautifully unique and one of a kind. We tried a lot (and by a lot I really mean A LOT) of ice cream flavors and they were all so delicious. We went there after my recommendation 'cause well, in case you haven't noticed I'm obsess with everything vintage related. I fortunately didn't forget to take my camera with me and captured that moment. 

Now I can keep that flavor forever on my mind..

I enjoy traveling more than anything in this world. You can see so many different locations and meet people that you've never ever seen before. Traveling gives you also the opportunity to learn more about a country's tradition, culture and food (practically what I basically live for), which also makes me feel really excited.

Don't forget to smile, 
xoxo MacQueen98.

first week of school

Hello angels, hope everyone's doing well. School started at Tuesday and I'm already really impressed about it. If you haven't read my student scholarship post you're probably wondering why. But I promise you once you will everything will make perfectly sense (You can check it out just by clicking here!).

I'm so glad I make the right choice not only for myself but also for my future and I'm even able to be there. I don't live near school (or that area to be more specific) so I wake up at 5:00 every morning to take the train and be there at time but I don't complain at all. Here fits perfectly something that I once read "there's no elevator to success, you have to take the stairs".

The first day I got there I was more exciting that nervous which is really weird for someone like me who's literally stressed 24/7 (seriously, get to the point K). I met 3 people before I even went to class and once I did I liked every single class member that was in there. They were all so kind and understanding that I thought I might be dreaming.

I sat next to a blond girl named Jessica who was 2 inches taller than me (even though I was older than her!). This place might seem to be the right place for me but unfortunately it wasn't the right one for Jessica. She was always complain and blaming herself about a wrong choice she made for her future. On Thursday she got a call from her mum that changed her mood completely. She told her that she found a school a lot closer to their household than ARS (=that's my school's name in case you were wondering) with the right for Jessica direction. I was sad and happy at the same time during that moment. Happy and kind of released since all the stress and the sadness that seem to be all over her was gone for good. And sad because I was never going to see her again. I know that we've literally met each other a few days ago but were really close. I didn't wanted to be selfish and put her down again so I never (not even for a little tiny moment) show her that my heart was feeling sad except for happy too. It's not that I don't have any other friends or people to hang out with but since we were sitting together we were (once again) really close with each other.

Anyway, that was pretty much what happened throughout my first week on ARS and everything that I wanted to share with you.

If you're like me and you've already started school I really hope that it was as good as possible so far but if it wasn't remember that life ain't easy. Trust me when I'm saying that I know myself how rough and tough life can be but hope never really dies. If you are lucky enough and you don't have school yet I wish you a good from the button of my heart luck.

It's around the time to get going but before that (if you made it that far of course) I wanted to thank you (SO SO SO much) for the minutes you spent every time I upload a personal post of my owns.

With that being said I really (hope) to "see" you in my next one.

Don't forget to smile,

xoxo MacQueen98.

my 17th birthday

Today was yet another busy day and I couldn't possibly be happier that it's finally over. I woke up pretty early since I had a college interview and an AP exam to attend to. Thankfully everything end up better than I ever imagined. Since I just came home I had no time to capture anything today, so I decided to show you guys the shots that I took on my birthday. Without further ado let's get into it..

(I only photographed the things that I got from my parents and my little brother as well as my birthday cake).

For obvious reasons I decided not to capture the things that I got from my closest friends and family since it would be too personal. Thanks to the people I love I had a great time and so much fun on that special day.

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"There's nothing more satisfying in this world than the feeling that you have knowing that someone cares enough about you to make you happy" -MacQueen98.

Don't forget to smile,
xoxo MacQueen98.

my school scholarship

A lot of things that happened this year (which I'm not really comfortable sharing with) literally made me hate school for the first time in my entire life but I guess everything happens for a reason, right? One day I found a school in a city near mine that gives five student scholarships each year. I am proud enough to say that I am one of those five students. The school that I am going to attend on September 8th has clearly a higher mind level than my old school. It feels so unreal and exciting (I can't stop smiling while writing this) at the same time which kinda makes it hard to believe. Unfortunately the school is in a city near mine which pretty much means that I have to wake up around 4:30/5:00 am every single morning. Not complaining though, you have to work for your dreams.

Something else that I really wanna share with you guys is that I am a 17 years old teenager right now since my birthday was on Monday 24th. I photographed the entire day to show you everything that happened on my birthday.

 I really missed these kind of posts that I was just talking to you guys about my day, my thoughts, my problems, my dreams, my entire life. I might go back in these kind of posts if you don't mind. Please comment down below what are your thoughts about that. With that being said I think you all know what time it is..

xoxo MacQueen98.

Limburg vacation // architecture

I got really excited with the praphic architecture of the city. Every little road was leading us to a living fairytale. Every little detail was leading us to a small new world.

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''It's funny how little things like that are able to inspire you and change your life'' -MacQueen98.



xoxo MacQueen98.

Limburg vacation 2015 // shopping streets

Walking in the old city was more beautiful than I ever thought. The streets were full of people who were also enchanted by the beauty of this graphical place like we were. Every little road was leading to something so unique and different.

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You can find a lot of coffee shops in the streets of the old city. All of them with different kind of flavors for everyone's taste.

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Every little corner was so enchanting beautiful that I sometimes got the feeling that this city came out of a fairytale.

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I really enjoyed the -full of color- old streets of the city.


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xoxo MacQueen98.